Credibility and Inspiration

I want to talk about credibility, as well as address some of the people who have criticized some of my statements about the influence certain people can have on you, notably idols in the form of "celebrities". The things I have written here, especially the past few posts, were written with the intent to share some of the ideals I try to live by, hopefully inspiring the (few) people who read this blog to better their own lives, or at least learn a successful way to deal with stress or anger. However, the way I write could be perceived as putting myself on a "high horse", or implying that my way of thinking is right, and what I say should be followed. This is not my intent at all, and i stress that this is understood, because I am in no way trying to promote my way of thinking or living, or tell someone what to do. I am simply writing thoughts that I have, things that may possibly help others, if they choose to read and accept it. I do not want people to read this as a self help column, or a blog that is boasting my own persona. I try to be as modest as I can be, and I realize that true humility and modesty are hard to achieve, especially when talking about yourself. So, in saying that, I would also like to talk about credibility, and the actual affect of what I write.

It is not uncommon to gain inspiration from a celebrity, commonly a musician, actor, or athlete. This is usually only because these people are quoted by the media, and their words and philosophies reach far more people than say, something a teenager says in a class discussion. The question I ask myself is though, do we listen to what the celebrity says because of their credibility versus the ordinary high school student? And if so, how has this credibility been achieved? I know some very intelligent people who's ideals are brilliantly conceived, and certainly as interesting as anything a movie star could say. However, the difference is, that these young people, who are not known by the world, or even by people outside their own town, are unheard voices. And yet their ideas may coincide, or something that the young, unknown person says may outweigh the celebrity's in terms of intelligence or intellectuality. I'm saying that something that a person says that I may find interesting or thought provoking, with good chance others may find it that way too, will often go unheard to people who may very well need those exact words to help them in their own personal struggle.

The idea is, that there is inspiration to be found from anyone around you, celebrity or not. I am not saying to completely disregard what your idols say, and only listen to your friends. However, I think a lot of people go by what their idols say, and only that, while ignoring what may possibly be a more interesting or helpful topic brought up by one of their friends. We need to constantly keep our eyes open for inspiration from any source possible, whether it be a celebrity, or someone who lives next door to us. The question you should ask yourself however, is if you are following this advice because it comes from a celebrity who has achieved social credibility, or from someone who has truly gained your personal respect. Personally, my greatest source of inspiration has come from two people, both celebrities, who have certainly achieved social credibility, for many reasons. I cannot stress enough though, that the reason I am so affected by these people, and am constantly inspired and amazed by them, is not because they have achieved "greatness" in society's view, or because they are portrayed as positive, inspirational people. I have truly been affected by them, and their social status has never once came into play when I have been inspired by something they say or do. And while they have been the most inspirational factors in my life, that is not to say I have not found appreciation and inspiration by people close to me, or things that are in my own life. I have definitely been inspired by people around me, that I know personally, and I find inspiration in many things, not only "celebrities" that I do not know personally. Hopefully this is clear, and it is not perceived that I live in a fantasy world where I only act on the decisions made by my "celebrity" idols. I act on what I personally feel is right, or what I personally feel is what i want to do. The person that I am has been affected by these two people the most, among other things, but ultimately, the way I think and act is because I strive on acting for myself, and not others. I try harder than anything else to be my own person, and not someone who is affected negatively by those around me. And again, I am not trying to promote myself in any way, or imply that I am better or live above than anyone else.

I do not know exactly how people take what I write, or if they agree/disagree with it. I would like to think that is has helped someone, but I simply write to better express myself, because at least knowing my words are out there, gives some satisfaction to knowing I may be helping someone. No one will ever be able to express their true being to someone else through words, but I would like people to know that I have more depth than what is often perceived.

Infinity, and Change

Infinity is one the most complex theories known to me, and most likely mankind. Most of us can somewhat understand the vastness of infinity, and that it can not be measured in any form. However, whichever way we perceive it, there is never any end, and this is at least more comprehensible to us. The idea is, that there is nearly nothing in this world that can withstand the power of time. And time, as we understand it, will go on for infinity. I am not stating that nothing is infinite, because true love, not infatuation, or lust, but love in it's truest form, will never be able to die. It may be forgotten, or ignored, but the love that was made will always exist, even if it is in a form or dimension that people do
not understand. I can not think of another thing that will exist forever, because love comes in so many different forms, if I did think of another infinite concept, it would most likely be a variation of love, and not it's own unique concept. This post is not about love though, because regardless of the amounts of times I have tried to write about it, I have never been able to accurately describe it. Love exists in the 4th dimension, and no words can describe it.

This post is about change, and to better understand the importance of it, as well as appreciate it, the concept of infinity must be clear (In my opinion).

The average human life lasts about 85 to 90 years. And as I already discussed the inconceivable concept of infinity, a period of 85 years is the exact opposite, it is too small to even describe. In theory, our lives are specks of dust on a giant earth, not saying we are unimportant, just that in time, we are insignificant. And so the things that society has told us to be stressful or annoying are even smaller in comparison to our individual lives, which is again in comparison to infinity. It is not bizarre to think of a problem in our lives as compared to the history of the universe, or the future of it. It is simply a way of coping with things that come up in our lives. Of course, when an event happens in our life that bothers us, we are instinctively going to feel emotion towards it, often negatively. And at that moment, it is the most important thing to us, the thing that bothers us the most, and the thing that will continue to bother us until we find
a solution to our so called "problem". I think that sub consciously in every human being, we understand that the event that is the cause for our discomfort of anger at that exact moment, is not actually of the greatest importance. This is not to say that for anything that happens to you, you should automatically just brush it aside and not deal with it. This mindset will undoubtedly cause you even more problems. What I am trying to say is that when you are dealing with whatever has happened to you, take it is stride with the greater picture of tour entire life. I can assure that most things that take place in your life that have caused you anger or jealousy, did not affect your life one month in the future; of even one week.

So, when something does change, take it as a step towards bettering yourself instead of a negative action on someone else. Friends will undoubtedly change amongst you, people will change, you will lose, fail, and feel defeated and alone. Especially through your stage of suffering will things change, and these changes may be the most important of all. Find something to believe in, whether it be music, art, books, someone you admire, any sort of catalyst that will help you become a better person. This is not telling you to copy whatever inspires you, but use your inspiration to learn, grow, and ultimately improve your state of mind. It is so unbelievably unhealthy to walk around with negative thoughts in your head, because pretty soon, you are not only negatively affecting yourself, but those around you. The truest test of maturity, and a strong personal sense of being, is being able to control your own behavior, and that means understanding that there are things that will happen to you that just do not matter to you; or at least should not matter to you. I will never be able to tell you how to live your life, and I do not wish to do that, but if what I write helps someone become less lonely, or discover themselves in a new way, then that is truly an honor.

Truth, The 4th Dimension, and Happiness

I have been wanting to write something here for some time now that would accurately express my views on a number of topics, things that I have never really been able to say in words. I have begun to believe more and more in the 4th dimension, the one that purely exists through energies, and feelings. And the more I begin to understand it and believe in its existence, the more my thoughts are processed in that form. So writing posts has become more and more difficult, as my thoughts can no longer be expressed into words as clearly. But I feel that any effort at all is worth it, because I know some people very close to me that I want to help, and I want them to use these words to benefit their own lives. Ultimately, I want them to believe in the 4th dimension and understand these feelings, because when you do, it is far easier to control your energy for positive outcomes.

I do not really want to drift into a self help column, or a message to the teenagers of America, but I feel that the most important message, which is also the most over used, and stereotypical, is to be as true to yourself as possible. However, even if one completely understands this, and begins to believe that they can change, from being self absorbed (negatively), and so easily influenced by negative "peer pressure", it may be useless. Most of the people I see and interact with on a daily basis are already so lost and confused that staying true to their own selves seems impossible. Why? because they do not know themselves anymore. As soon as you go against your will, or true desire, to satisfy someone else, you lose integrity, and self awareness. It is almost addicting however, because your self control diminishes each time you "give in" to something against your will. From then on, you begin to act differently on a normal basis, in order to be accepted by people who are already troubled. And as your self control and awareness and respect decreases, so does your ability to identify your true being.

So simply telling someone to be true to themselves may no longer be a positive statement, because their true selves may already be lost or hidden. I should not say lost, because you can never lose your true sense of morality, and the instinct to know what is right, or at least feel what is right. it takes a great deal of maturity, self control, and awareness to be able to realize that you are in fact an individual. I have seen countless people claim that they act the way they act because they actually like it, not because they are trying to fit in. I believe that the percentage of people who actually act like this on their own account, with absolutely no pressure at all, is the lowest number in the world. Everyone, by instinct, likes to have fun, and not feel stressed or pressure. However, the way that this "fun" is now achieved almost completely eliminates the meaning of the word. It is now a game of who can be better than the other, instead of respecting each other as human beings. I will admit that truly stepping outside of the society 'circle', while somehow keeping a foot in to observe, is the hardest thing anyone can do. We must back up for some time, in order to see from an outsiders point of view, just how bizarre and confusing our society is. However, we cannot completely isolate from human contact, because we learn solely from watching others make the mistakes we are trying to avoid. So yes, mistakes are unavoidable, but so is the fact that there is always a higher ground, and a better way of life.

I cannot tell you how to become a better person, it is only something that you can learn and discover on your own. Because in reality, becoming a 'better person', means something different for each and every one of us. The purest way to discovering yourself, in my opinion, is that of discovering the 4th dimension. Because it is everywhere, not just in music, as I have gone into detail with before. It is a dimension solely made up if feeling, and energy, and when you are able to understand the very energy that has created you, then you will be able to understand your own self. And when you understand your own self, then you are very easily allowed to excel in life, and truly be happy.